Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Meditation for Pregnancy - A Review

I purchased Meditation for Pregnancy - Guided Meditations with David Harshada Wagner from iTunes last night.

There are 3 meditations.

Deep Relaxation for Mom
Connecting with your Baby
Perfect Birth Visualization

I did Deep Relaxation for Mom and part of Connecting with your Baby when I went to bed last night. Meditation could be considered exercise for the mind, and as with any exercise it takes practice. But, I did enjoy the pieces I did. My biggest struggle was turning off my brain and truly focusing on the meditation. I apologize now for sounding like "Eat, Pray, Love." I'm going to try to do this most nights before bed, or when I have the house to myself after work just to get used to relaxing.

Isn't that crazy? We have to WORK to RELAX.

I was pretty sleepy by the time I did Connecting with your Baby and for some reason I was having trouble breathing. So I took out the headphones, rolled over, and went to sleep. I'll listen to Perfect Birth Visualization in the next few days and provide a review. If I like it, I'll take it to the hospital to help me through contractions. My biggest fear is freaking out early on, and you REALLY need to stay calm when you are going through labor. Otherwise, you're in for a long day.

What do you do to relax? How do you turn your mind off when you are trying to relax or sleep?

~Mama Lo~

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

iTunes purge and my Weekly Update

We got a new computer, and with that computer I had to back up all of my old music on some flash drives. Long story, external hard drive wouldn't work with old computer. Anyway, I downloaded iTunes on the new computer tonight, which gives me the opportunity to start fresh with my iTunes. Ahhhh how refreshing! I had so much JUNK in my old library. I'd do the thing where I just uploaded an entire CD or downloaded an entire album, all the while only liking one or two songs.

This evening I downloaded T.H.E. by, the new Drake album, TUPAC's greatest hits, and most importantly, a guided meditation CD for pregnancy.

In our childbirth prep class we ended the last session with a relaxation exercise, which was guided meditation. If you've ever done any yoga or Pilate's, it is basically a longer version of the relaxation exercise they do at the end. Hopefully this pregnancy relaxation CD isn't too cheesy, but I could definitely use it. I will post a review tomorrow.

I am just 5 weeks away from having my baby now. Holy moly. 5 weeks. That isn't far at all. There is a good chance this child may come sooner than 5 weeks too. My feelings are mixed. OBVIOUSLY I'm happy, but I'm also taken over by a bit of numbness that I can't explain. I'm not overly excited, I'm not emotional, I'm not nervous, I'm just kind of going through the motions of each day, waiting to get home and rest. So I suppose this is the calm before the storm, the time when I'm very tired and struggling to complete simple tasks. Hopefully sooner than later the nesting stage kicks in. You know, the stage where I'm moving furniture to vacuum (when I shouldn't) and combing the carpet. Until then, I get anxiety about my lack of....well....feelings.

I had a doctor's appointment this morning. It was my last 2 week appointment, and now I start the weekly appointments. Whoo hoo! I didn't gain any more weight, I measured well, Baby Lo's heartbeat sounded good, everything is progressing smoothly.

Alright, off to listen to my relaxation meditation.

Watch for my post on our awesome Diapers n' Beer party!

~Mama Lo~

Tupac Love

Yes, I was born in Iowa in a very small farm town. I was raised in the suburbs of Kansas City. But I still love this man. Much to my mother's dismay in middle school. :)


Anyway, I'm talking about 2Pac because the brilliant Miss Bitch Cakes posted this quote on her blog today, and it explains perfectly the approach I'm taking with my life this year. I take this approach for 2 main reasons.

First, my uncle died way too young, and I learned how precious life is. Quit wasting it.
Second, I'm having a baby, and he needs a strong mother with her head on straight.

"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened...or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on."-Tupac


Saturday, November 19, 2011

Human Behavior

Why is it that humans question one another's actions by talking to everyone else about them? By the time they are finished, they have often made assumptions and created a villain out of the person being questioned. All the while, the truth lies in that person and that person alone, but they were never asked. Human relationships are so interesting.
This is my thought for the morning.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Prenatal massage

I went for a massage tonight, and it kind of sucked. I can't decide if she was scared she would put me into labor, just one that doesn't apply a lot of pressure, or if my pain tolerance is really high right now. Whatever the deal was, it just felt like she applied lotion a majority of the time. She did hit a few spots on my hands and legs, but didn't do anything for my hips. Ooh the hips, how I was looking forward to some relief. I also wrote down I had pain in the feet. I sound like a whiney brat. Back to the real world now where I'm grateful to live in a country that even has luxuries like massages. How is everyone's week going?

Monday, November 14, 2011

Weekly update and something I'm pondering

Holy balls, I'm 33 weeks pregnant. Can this be possible? This means I will definitely have a baby in 4 to 7 weeks. I have a few short weeks left of cooking the baby, and then it is a crap shoot on when this baby arrives.

The weekend was spent 100% with my husband. Friday night we went to dinner at Mr. Lo's request and picked up some red box movies. Dinner was at Outback Steakhouse where I enjoyed tilapia topped with crabmeat and a side of sweet potatoes. We also enjoyed terrible service, which caused us to miss our original plan of seeing "Immortals" in the theater. It was nice to cozy up on the couch and watch "The Lincoln Lawyer" and "Fast 5" though.

Saturday I spent most of the day relaxing on the couch and even took a nap. I watched another red box, "Limitless", and various other shows. Mr. Lo wanted to try and catch a movie again, so we took my ring to be cleaned, ate dinner at applebees and enjoyed even worse service, and managed to catch a movie a little after 8:00. We saw "Jack and Jill", which is hilarious. I love Adam Sandler, and he did not disappoint.

The best part about these two date nights was that they were suggested by my husband. He is making an effort to enjoy our last few weeks of just the two of us and taking me on dates. I couldn't feel more loved than I do by him. He's pretty amazing. Ladies, when you get towards the end of your pregnancy, don't feel bad if you get anxiety about losing a little bit of the freedom you have with your husband or significant other. It is a huge change, and it is normal to kind of mourne the loss of the endless fun you get to have with your husband. From what I hear though, it is all worth it, and life with your husband after baby becomes even more fun. I promise to let you know how it turns out for me.

Yesterday we went to the chiefs vs.broncos game. It was my goal game, and last of the season. I have to say, all of the walking, stair climbing and excitement of the games really do wear me out. I was so tired and exhausted that I took a vacation day today and slept in a bit. I was physically worn out. Sadly, the chiefs were terrible, and I have a feeling the rest of the season won't go well. Our QB is out for the rest of the season. Not that I'm a big Cassel (aka Casshole) fan, but that doesn't help our team much.

I am starting to get a few stretch marks. Mostly on my sides, and they are fairly small. I noticed a decent sized one on the under side of my belly today though, and I pray I don't get much more. I do put lotion on my belly, but honestly any of the products you buy won't prevent stretch marks. They don't come from dry skin. They come from your belly growing at fast rates and holding a lot of weight. Hopefully what I do get goes away.

This leads me to my last topic, the one I'm pondering. My scale's batteries are currently dead, and I'm considering not replacing them for a year. Here's why.

1. I don't want to fall into an unhealthy obsession about my weight right after the baby is born. I have a history of putting too much pressure on myself and expecting too much too fast.

2. I read Bethenny Frankel's "Naturally Thin" when I lost weight earlier this year. I vowed to myself I would never diet again, and I would never obsess about my weight again. I really want to hold to it by focusing on listening to what nutrients my body wants and beginning a healthy fitness program again.

3. My coworker passed on something her doctor said to her years ago, and the thought has stuck with me. He said, "your body didn't get like this overnight, it took 9 months to get here. So give yourself 9 months to get back to where you were before you were pregnant." I love this, and I think it is fair.

This is why I won't replace my batteries in the scale for 1 year. Every fall, we have our health screening at work to get a discount for our health insurance. At this screening they weigh us. At that time, I will allow myself to find out what I weigh. I imagine I will be weighed when I leave the hospital, so that gives me 9 months to try and lose weight in a healthy way.

What do you think about this readers? Crazy idea? Great idea? How did those of you with children approach weight loss after your baby?

~Mama Lo~

Friday, November 11, 2011

Babies R Us and a Maternity Shoot

A couple of Sundays ago, I forced my mom to join me for a trip to Babies R Us to get what I hope is the last of everything I need. For now, that is. I am sure when Baby Lo arrives we will find out what we like, don't like and still need. But, there were some things on my registry I still needed, so off we went.

Now let me say one thing about Babies R Us. They have great products, and the prices are higher than some, but they have a lot to choose from. Their customer service stinks. I've never had a smooth and pleasant experience in there. This trip was no exception.

When you create a baby registry at Babies R Us, they allow you to discount 10% off everything on your registry that you did not receive. Sunday was the day to do this, because quite frankly nesting is kicking in. I'm getting anxious. I know how quickly 7 weeks fly by, especially with the holidays sneaking up on us. Here's the catch, they will send you a certificate 2 weeks before your due date that you can use one time up until 2 weeks after your due date. Who on earth feels like waddling through a store for hours with swollen ankles and a field mouse's bladder 2 weeks before they give birth? And in my case, if they think I want to make a big shopping trip with a newborn in cold Missouri January to buy all this stuff, they're nuts. So the manager did agree to let me use my 10%, but it will close out my registry. Totally fine, I've had both of my showers and if someone wants to get us something else, they can buy what they'd like. :) I was relieved that they were going to allow me to do this, until I got to the check out process. As I should have expected, the manager didn't communicate this with the cashiers. I told the cashier my situation, and she questioned me like a murder victim while pointing to every associate who walked by. "Is that who you talked to? Was she short? Dark hair? Tall?" My response, "Ma'am, that was an hour ago, I spoke to her briefly, and given that I'm short myself, I don't pay much attention to height. I think she was closer to my size?" She tracked down the manager, who rolled her eyes at the cashier and told her she can manually plug in the 10% coupon, etc. My ankles were swelling by the minute. My mom was also using a 20% off coupon on the baby monitor, and found out AFTER she paid that the cashier she saw didn't apply the coupon. He said it wasn't valid until the following week. What the ding dong didn't look at was that this is a flyer with 4 different coupons, one of those being the coupon for the current week. Mom had to go back inside and get some money back, all while signing her life away that the store wasn't giving her something for free. It was worth it though, we got $60 back!

At the end of the day, I was relieved and walked out with some very important items. One is a baby monitor that reaches 400 ft. The monitor has a camera and screen so I can actually look at Baby Lo and see what he's doing. I purchased sheet and mattress protectors, the rest of the room's decor, bottles, a baby carrier, and of course some adorable clothes and sleep gowns. I know I'm forgetting other items, but those are the ones I was most concerned about. The only thing we still need is a stroller and a car seat. We will probably rent an infant seat from the hospital since he will only be in it a short time. The stroller I'm getting is a running stroller, and I'm getting it from the new store in town, Buy Buy Baby. Buy Buy Baby is a WONDERFUL store, and had it been open when I created my registry, I would have gone there in a heartbeat.

Last Saturday, my good friend came out and did our maternity photos. I haven't seen them all yet, but she did post a sneak peek. Out of respect for her and her business, I'll only post one here, because I don't own these photos yet. Kara is an amazing photographer, and I am blessed enough she did these photos as my shower gift. She is also doing all of the newborn pictures and milestone pictures until Baby Lo is 4.

~Mama Lo~

Thursday, November 10, 2011

I Forgot How Good it Feels

So I'm a few days in on eating healthier; no pop, no sweet tea, and no fast food. I forgot how much better good, nutritious food really does taste! What the what? Last night's dinner was grilled chicken (which I over seasoned but corrected with some BBQ sauce) and some Green Giant Steamed Veggies in sauce. I've been gorging myself with sandwiches and fries, and I felt so much more satisfied on 5 oz. of chicken and a cup of veggies.

I've also upped my water intake while cutting out any soda or tea, and that feels amazing too!!

Tuesday: 160oz while at work
Wednesday: 96 oz while at work
Today: 96 oz while at work with a little less than 3 hours to go. I'll probably get in 128 oz.

The only thing that hasn't gone away completely is my sweet tooth, and I don't expect it to. I've allowed myself a brownie a day. It satisfies my chocolate craving, and I'm not over doing it.

I also found some frozen grapes in my freezer. Seriously, I don't think there are many things as satisfying as frozen grapes. Especially if you are thirsty and water alone isn't doing the trick.

Now I know that if the doctor says anything about my weight at my next appointment, I'm doing everything I can on my end. I also know that I'll be just fine in losing the weight after the baby is born.

~Mama Lo~

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Yesterday I had a doctor's appointment, and he addressed the weight issue.

I must confess, I have not been a good girl during this pregnancy. First trimester, grilled chicken made me gag, lettuce hurt my tummy, and basically anything but carbs made me queasy. I've blogged about attempting to run a 5k while pregnant, and my body just didn't agree with running while pregnant. More so, my heart didn't agree with running while pregnant. I was also one of those paranoid 1st trimester women who wouldn't excercise and eat any lunch meat, fish, etc., because I was so afraid of miscarriage.

Then the 2nd trimester came around, and I kept telling myself I would get back on track. Eat healthy, exercise, etc. etc. What did I do? I made excuses. Yes, it was 100 degrees outside, which is too hot for an expecting mother to be working up a sweat. However, inside the gym where I lost 15 pounds earlier this year, it was not too hot. And I always found a reason to skip the treadmill or elliptical. I was inconsistent with my home cooking and healthy eating. Some days I wanted to cook up a storm. Some days I craved salad. MOST days, I grabbed something unhealthy from McDonalds for breakfast, ate out for lunch, and often ate out for dinner. WHO AM I? I hate McDonalds!! But I had quite a few Monopoly pieces this year. (OOPS)

So now that I'm close to the end, I suddenly (with the motivation fo the doctor) got on board with eating a little better. No more sweet tea, no more pop, no more eating out on a regular basis. Sweet husband and I are limiting our dinners out to once a week. I hit up the grocery store last night and got my old staples. And most importantly, I started using the tool I signed up for early in my pregnancy but never used.

For my expecting mother followers, please check out this site! It has some wonderful tools and ideas, and it is the pregnancy version of


Best of luck to each of you! I hope you have more self control and less excuses than I have!

~Mama Lo~

Baby Shower #2

As promised, here is a recap of my second baby shower.

This shower was my second and the one for family and closest friends. My AMAZING sister-in-law threw it for me at my house. Ladies, if you have the opportunity, have a baby shower at your own house. It was so nice to just carry the gifts upstairs to Baby Lo's room instead of stuffing them in the car and transporting them to my home.

Cutesie Banner

Diaper Cake (from my first shower)

Bingo! We played one game. I loved it, because I didn't really have to participate. The cards had different baby items on them, and as I opened gifts, the ladies would mark them off. To the left are some adorable Christmas ornaments that my sister-in-law gave as prizes.

ADORABLE cupcakes made by my best friend. Eyes are M&M's, mouths are licorice & sour candies. they were delicious!
Nice spread of food

Strawberries, Chocolate, Oh my!

Pacifier mints - so cute!

My sweet sister-in-law and myself

My mommy and me

My grandma all the way from Iowa!

My good friend from high school, who is ALSO my hair stylist. Isn't her hair fabulous!?

My good friend and photographer. I threw her a baby shower in September and she had the little guy right after. 5 weeks early! Thank goodness we threw the shower when we did.

This is a baby scrapbook that my photographer friend above made me. So thoughtful! She did my maternity pictures and will be taking all of the baby pictures. Each page has places for all of the pictures she's going to take. SO EXCITED!!!

A nice baby blanket

Adorable Onesie. This was my husband's football number in high school. He's so excited about this!

This is the face of someone who just got a COACH diaper bag. I don't even own a Coach purse! I received this from my hair dresser friend above.
Surrounded by gifts!

Mizzou bib. This came from my BFF who is a big KU fan, so I very much appreciate the pain she endured in purchasing this for our baby.

I can't even begin to really recap how wonderful this day was. I was surrounded by my closest friends and family. I ate really good food, and I finished the evening off with my sweet husband, parents, grandparents, and brother & sister-in-law with a nice dinner. I am so blessed, and I know our son will be surrounded by love. Hormones MAY have something to do with it, but it becomes so hard not to be taken over by emotions on days like these. I thank God for the people in my life, and the blessings He's given me. I don't dare ask for anything more.

~Mama Lo~ 

Monday, November 7, 2011

In Case You Weren't Aware...EARTHQUAKE! -

There was an earthquake in Oklahoma this weekend. (Or a few earthquakes apparently.) Saturday evening, I was lazing around in bed watching DVR'd episodes of Desperate Housewives when I felt my house shaking. I thought for sure the washer had become possessed and started running randomly, thus shaking our top floor like always. I muted the TV, no running washer. Just a shaking house. I was oober creeped out, but thought well, we live near a small, local airport, perhaps there's a helicopter landing nearby? After 30 seconds or so, the shaking stopped and I returned to my brainless TV watching.

Per my usual bedtime routine, I decided to check out good ol' facebook before I entered into slumber. It was then that I saw, "OMGZZZ EARTHQUAKE!" "DUDE, DID ANYONE FEEL THOSE AFTERSHOCKS?" "EARTHQUAKE IN OKLAHOMA!"

Yes, it's true for those who study media, traditional news sites are old news. If you want to know the latest happenings, tune into ditzy girls and grammar lacking fellas via Facebook to find out what's going on. With this new found information, I did a little research, and it was true. Good ol' Missouri was feeling the aftershocks from an earthquake in Oklahoma.


The sky isn't falling boys and girls. The ground is. Lord helps us.

In other news, I have some events to share with you soon. Upcoming topics include my second babyshower, my trip to Babies R Us to buy everything I still needed, my MATERNITY Photo shoot, and my latest pregnancy anxiety. Stay tuned.

~Mama Lo~

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Fears About Fitness After Pregnancy

I'm just going to put this out there.

I'm vain sometimes.

I'm a nice person, I love people, I find the best in the world most of the time, but I want to look good while I do those things. I'm almost 32 weeks pregnant, I've gained way more than 35 pounds that one is told to gain altogether, I cry when I see recent photos of myself, and I am in fear of what is going to happen to me after I have the baby.

Beyond my fear about ever being thin again and fitting into normal jeans, do you know what my biggest fear is?

I am deathly afraid of getting on the treadmill and trying to run again.

I am so scared I'll never be able to exercise like I did... That this life of a runner with a healthy self esteem was just a short lived period in my life.

Sounds silly, doesn't it? But I truly have anxiety about getting back on the treadmill for the first time. I can predict the advice I'll receive.

"Start Slow and work your way up." Do you remember Crazy Lo? Crazy Lo doesn't understand slow and easy. Remember the post where I said that I walk with purpose? I can't go for a leisurely walk on a Sunday afternoon just to enjoy nature. I walk to burn calories. So I'm afraid I will hop on the treadmill, start walking at a 4.0 and be completely out of breath after 5 minutes...without ever breaking into a jog. Mostly, I'm afraid of all the sadness and self loathing I will feel knowing I came from being in such amazing shape, to starting all over again.

Wow, that's daunting. I am going to have to start all over again. It took me years to get to the fitness level I was at. YEARS. I don't want to invest years into my exercise again. I want to jump on the treadmill, run a mile in 10 minutes and go about my day.

I'm going to need some major support, pep talks and willpower come February when I can hopefully start a cardio program again.

~Mama Lo~